The Woman that changed my life

No one, I mean no one has inspired me like Audrey Hepburn. I truly wish I could have met her, even for just an instant. Two marriages, one son with each and still kept strong like she said “your heart just breaks, that’s all. But you can’t point fingers. You have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you”. Career wise she has led me to explore acting. I am not an actress, I actually look funny and yes I do model sometimes but most the jobs i do, don’t even pay. Except the ones i have done abroad. Anyway back to Audrey, I just remember a quote from her that said that as a child she was taught to never bring attention to herself, it was bad manners. I always think about that. I always want the spotlight on me, it’s true. I have been selfish at times.

I just love Audrey, I truly do. She has changed my life. The first movie I saw with her was “War and Peace”. And the minute I saw her I knew I loved her.

I am looking at a monologue I am now rehearsing. My character’s name Lila. I keep wondering, I am not an actress, but Audrey has inspired me to be natural and just go for it. Why not??

The hugging mother

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I woke at 5 am. I took the 405 and drove with almost no traffic. Arrived at the LAX Hilton Hotel by 6:30am.

I was ready meet Amma for the first time. I was one of the first ones to arrive and form a line. By 9am I was given a token and taken inside the conference room. It was a large room and I sat on the very front row. I was right in the middle and in front of me was a low seating space adorned by roses where Amma was going to seat. As I waited for her to arrived I started getting anxious. When she finally walked up the stage, she sat down on the stage’s floor, right in front of me. She was accompanied by a few small children; they looked sooo happy to be seating next to her. The small girl to her right kept waiving at her mom. It was the sweetest thing in the world. Then I saw her eyes. Amma’s eyes are the most purest and gentle eyes I have ever seen. I could not believe i was in front of this wonderful human being. I cannot explain exactly what it feels to have her seat in front of you. It’s absolutely NOT describable. I was so blessed to be there. The Swami that was with her started singing and then we went into total silence.

I closed my eyes and meditated. I started to cry. She was the most beautiful being I have ever had in front of me. Other than His Holiness The Dalai Lama, she was closer to me and the feelings I felt are sooo amazing. When my time came to hug her, i was shaking and my hands were sweating. I was asked to kneel down and a man asked me “what’s your first language?” “Spanish”, I replied. There she was in front of me. She looked at me, and then hugged me. The man told her “Spanish” and she held me while she whispered in my ear a word. The most beautiful thing I have ever heard. She whispered in Spanish, and I begun to cry. She repeated the word over ten times and held me soo hard. She let go, took a look at me and held me one last time. And she whispered once again in my ear.

I stood up, almost could not walk and sat down on stage on a chair with others. She continued to hug while I cried. I cannot explain to you what it feels to be hugged by her. She has hugged a total of 32 million people.  To me her hugged was so deep and intimate. She loved me, she truly did loved me those very few seconds she held me. Amma, is the most pure soul and higher being I have ever encountered in my life. I am so happy to share this experience with you. I hope that one day you can have the opportunity to meet her and experience her hugs.

 

 

 

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My heritage

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Artist: Gustavo “Gussan” Sanchez

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Maria Sibaja from Oaxaca Mexico

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      Mario Sibaja

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Located on 6027 York Blv in Los Angeles Ca, “Centro Cultura  EEK MAYAB” is a total jewel of L.A. I met with Mary Cruz to discuss future Yoga classes there and as soon as I walked in my jaw dropped. I love, I mean being Mexican American. I love my culture, I love my history and I love my traditions. I felt like i was in an anthropology store from South and Central America, and of course Mexico. This place is a non profit organization that was established by the community for the community. The beauty about this place is that for a discounted price they are able to offer people classes. The center offers singing, guitar, and cultural classes. Some classes such as the learning how to write classes are Free! Mary told me that their goal is one day to be able to offer all the classes for free. Soon, they will be offering Yoga, and Yes I will be there to teach :) I honestly love this place. It is full of history and art. I so excited to start teaching there. I am also going to invite some of my own private yoga clients for secession there. If you would like to come join us email me. I would love to have you. Lastly, I suggested to Mary since they are renovating the entire center, to incorporate some Asian art. You all know I love Asian traditions and Art. Therefore next week we will be visiting some shops in the valley that sell Asian Art and furniture. All these new pieces will go to the outside of the center. We plan on having the yoga classes outdoors and design the place super magically. I can’t wait. This Sunday they are having a cultural event from 12pm to 7pm. Please come and visit this little place full of love, art, and traditions. There will be food, and music and of course dancers from several parts of Mexico.